The day they told me lives in my mind
September 5th somewhere around 9
They said it was bad, couldn't operate
But still couldn't afford to wait.
Grown in my lung and around my heart
No chance with surgery, I would die on
the table, Chemo and Rad as soon as I
was able.
I wasn't surprised or even upset, it's
like I was prepared for this yet; I
think sometimes I may be in denial
With all the meds I continue to smile.
The only time it comes alive is when I'm
alone in the dark of night, I see before
me the faces I love; got to fight push has
come to shove.
I get so tired and weary sometimes it seems too much
And then I see the faces and feel their loving touch
I have to keep on fighting no matter how hard
It's tough to be a hero when inside glass and shards.
I only ask one thing, oh dear loves of mine
That when I'm gone you'll remember all of the times
That we laughed and loved and held each other tight
And you my precious husband held me in the night.
Kaya be like Granny, laugh and love a joke, be the
one whose always fun and keep after those old folks.
Zach I know you'll make me proud, not a doubt in my
heart, someday on the Steelers you will have a start.
Jason go on with your life and make it a happy one
And if you find love again know that's all right
I don't expect you to be alone always in the night
Love who you need to and keep love in your sight,
Michael my first born, so beautiful to me keep
To the straight and Narrow it's the way to be
Paul my baby, whose now a grown up man, you
have made me so proud I know you understand.
To all the others that I love, my sisters 1 and 2
And the only brother I have left all my love to you
Take care of each other and hold on if you must
Never hurt each other and always love and trust.
All my friends and loved ones that I will never see
Know that you have all meant the world to me
So many times I would have given up this old life
But someone always came through
with smiles to take the strife
So as I close this poem there's one thing left to say
Remember all the times we shared and pull them out some day
And know that I am at peace, happy as can be,
and one more thing before I go;
PLEASE REMEMBER ME
Kathalise Martin
© May 21st, 2003
